Wednesday, April 8, 2009



On the rarest of occasions, do I want to leave my house.

Am I depressed?

I don't think so. I take meds for that, and I seem to be upbeat. I'm not crying or anything.

Am I agoraphobic?

I don't think so. I am not SCARED to go outside. I just don't want to.

Am I antisocial?

No question. Always have been. Probably always will be. Not anti-social really, just un-social.

Am I lazy?

Historically I haven't been lazy. But I guess you could say I have become lazi-ER in the past year. Like now, I don't HAVE to get up to go work every day, so it's really hard to want to get up at all. And have so much time on my hands, I really don't feel pressured very much.

So is there something wrong with me, or have I just figured out how to be a lazy, unsocial, agoraphobic and get away with it without having an intervention?

Or am I entitled to be this way since I'm chronically ill and hopefully "officially" disabled if my paperwork goes through?

Or does this post prove that am I totally, utterly, completely insane?

I am curious to hear the opinions of others....

As long as they are 'friendly' of course.


1 comment:

  1. You are not agrophobic, anti-social, lazy, or depressed. You are a mom with 2 normal (i.e. energetic) children who is also battling a horrible disease. I think you deal with a great bit more than you let on and sometimes your body & mind just need a rest.
    So continue to listen to your body and enjoy the good days - think of the "bad" ones as good days to talk with God. You are loved!!