Not Me! Monday

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The scale did NOT say 157.5 pounds today.

I have NOT washed and dried and folded three loads of laundry so far today.

I have NOT completed the addressing of 250 Christmas cards.

I have NOT made my bed, with freshly washed sheets.

I have NOT dry Swiffered where I found it necessary.

I am NOT exhausted.

It is NOT 1:10 pm.

I am NOT exhausted.

It is NOT 1:10 pm.

Why do I keep saying it?

Because it is NOT difficult to read.

I am NOT exhausted.

It is NOT 1:10 pm.

There is NOT more to do.

So very much more to do.

I did NOT promise that the dining room table would be cleared off today.

It will NOT.

I have NOT let myself down once again that the Christmas cards are NOT finished.

I have NOT sent out all of Jake's birthday invitations.

There are NOT four more loads of laundry to wash, dry, and fold.

There are NOT presents in boxes hidden all over this house and two others that I need to open and wrap and then hide again.

There are NOT presents en route that I forgot I even ordered.

There are NOT so very many more things to do.

I do NOT have bell choir concert practice tonight.

My body is NOT still having a Remicade reaction every 2-3 hours.

I am NOT tired.

All that NOT being said.

I am now going to take my high carb, high protein lunch which soothes my wounded mouth.

I am going to take my afternoon medicines.

I am going to put on my fluffy socks.

And I am going to take a nap.

My new normal tells me that I have to accept what DID get accomplished.

Instead of what did NOT.

Yes, I have so much undone.

Yes, I have a full day of errands to run.

But not the next day.

Maybe I will get more finished on Wednesday.

Maybe on Thursday.

Maybe on Friday.

Maybe.

Maybe NOT.

But I have to let go.

Right now.

And take a nap.

Because my body says I have to.

I wish I did NOT.