It's been a couple of weeks.
I'm not so angry any more.
I went from:
meaning, of course, WHAT THE HELL???? (or worse, but I'm trying to cut back on the vulgarities, just because, well, I dunno)
meaning, WHY THE HELL? (or, of course, worse).
meaning, HOW THE HELL AM I GOING TO DO THIS?
meaning, HOW CAN I PHYSICALLY DO THIS?
meaning, HOW COULD THIS HAVE HAPPENED, AND HOW I AM I GOING TO DO THIS WHEN I CAN'T EVEN GET OUT OF BED MORE THAN SOME DAYS AND I CAN BARELY TAKE CARE OF THE MOST BASIC OF TASKS LET ALONE REALLY TAKE GOOD CARE OF MY ALREADY TWO KIDS HOW THE HECK AM I GOING TO DO THIS?
And please don't tell me with God's help.
I mean, yeah, maybe.
I have no idea HOW I am going to do this.